Anyway, the only person who believed me, is a very dear friend. Together we figured out what this is. It’s been a tough journey for both of us (for more reasons than Lyme mind you!). The sad part, and I think what bothers me more so than the infection, is the fact that we met AFTER I got bit. I was still sort of me since we met around a month after I had been bitten. I believe if I didn’t cover up the “mosquito” bite by wearing long sleeves, LT would have figured it out.
Anyway, if it weren’t for LT I would have BELIEVED I was loosing it despite the evidence.
See my case isn’t an ambiguous case. I had all the clear signs but was just IGNORANT.
LT shared this with me today, NPR-Moth Radio (pagan), and I sort of relate to the first bit when the lady says something along the lines of: people are only smart because they read a book she hasn’t read. I laughed at that but can totalllllly relate.
I am reading every thing possible… Books, peer-reviewed articles, alternative medicine info, homeopathy, documentaries, you name it. If there is anything both I and LT are good at, it’s scouring the Internet for information. This happens to be part of my degree… So, despite the accusation of fatalism, I believe I am anything but… Sometimes to a fault, yes, since I can refuse any offer of help. The point is I do not give up.